I did it

I quit my job. God, I feel so liberated. The stress immediately melted off. My anxiety was reduced to almost nothing. My mental health almost immediately rebounded. I feel SO MUCH better.

Granted, things are going to be a little tight until I find a new one, but we decided that ultimately my mental health was more important than a paycheck. I think we both knew that I was on the verge of a breakdown. I had told my psychiatrist earlier in the week that my mood felt very brittle. I was soldering through and maintaining, but it wouldn’t have taken me much to break. And it was going to be a big break. Bigger than last year. And I couldn’t have told you which direction it was going to go.

So we talked, and I sent an email.

It’s done. And it feels. So. Good.

I had forgotten what it was like to be out from under all of that stress. I feel human again. I’m sleeping better, I’m eating better, I feel like a new person.

The last week has been filled with getting our ducks in a row, but starting tomorrow the job hunt begins full throttle.

2 thoughts on “I did it

  1. Erica Wagner September 17, 2018 / 8:55 pm

    I happened to just stumble upon this post and have to say how much it has deeply resonated with me. You’re right, mental health is so important, and it makes me happy that you had the awareness to know what was hindering you from being a healthier you.

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    • 5toforty September 17, 2018 / 8:56 pm

      There is nothing as important anyone health. And no job is worth sacrificing it, your morals, or your integrity.

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